Friday, October 19, 2007

hell months: September & October

for almost 2 months, i've been pushing myself to move and continue with my life. i only have myself to convince that I will get through this. that no matter what happen, I will get through. that this period will finally be over and that goos things will eventually happen. that i will be able to appreciate all the bad things that have happened because when it's time for me to be happy, it's gonna be all worth it.

i know the answers to most of my questions. why? because my faith never weakened. He had been my only source of strength in getting through all these. i havent cried and for the longest time, i've been putting a smile behind the pain. i have to be strong, i said to myself. and i believe i am. but i don't know how much more i have to bear. what more can happen before i see the light. i know i still can but for how long. it's the waiting that's killing me!

gusto kong magalit, gusto kong umiyak, gusto kong magreklamo, gusto kong may pumansin sa kin, gusto kong ako naman ang inaasikaso.

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