hanging on for dear life

there are times when i feel like i'm hanging on for dear life... when i feel like i'm slowly losing oxygen and i can barely catch my breath... when the pain i feel in my chest was too much, it seems it would explode any second... when every nerve in my brain is going haywire and the plates in my skull are contracting to each other...

but somehow, since i've experienced those feelings too many times, i know i'll get over them soon enough...

i am thankful for every blessing i received in my life, esp those i haven't recognized... i had enough of these blessings to get me through every trial and pain...

i'm ready for anything... even my own death... i know that God had given me a fruitful life and i lived it to the best that i can... i still have regrets... things i shouldn't have done because they caused pain to other people and to me... things i should have done for myself... but i lived... i loved...